I finally did it! I finally applied for a writing job! I’ve been wanting to get my writing ‘out there’ for months but I have never known where to start, and, truth be told, I have been absolutely terrified of rejection. But I did it guys, I finally did it. I bet you’re all wondering where I applied to (don’t lie people, I can feel the tension through my screen). Was it vogue? Was it the New Yorker a-la Carrie Bradshaw?? Was it something smaller like a national newspaper? No. No it wasn’t. It was my university’s student blogging page. But, hey, we’ve all got to start somewhere, right?
I requested an application form two whole months ago and the deadline for submissions is tomorrow (May 18th) and I submitted… on Friday. Yes, two whole days before the deadline. Now that’s not because I haven’t had the form filled in (I wrote a sample blog post the day I got the application form) it’s because I’ve been so scared that I won’t get the job. I know that rejection is a huge part of being a writer but that still doesn’t make it any less daunting. I suppose I’ve had this dream of becoming a writer for as long as I can remember and I know I’ll read that first letter of rejection as ‘you’re not good enough, you’ll never make it’. I also know I need to stop thinking like that but the more times I submit my writing, the more rejection I’ll get and the more ill get used to it and think ‘screw you, I can do this!’
But, hey, maybe I’ll get the blogging job and I’ll be able to put off receiving rejection for a little while longer. Fingers crossed!